Life always gets in the way of LIVING.
I am under a great deal of stress right now. I have a particular health challenge that makes stress of the bad kind dangerous for me. I have a temptation to coddle myself. But really I can’t remember a time where what I do hasn’t been loaded with stress.
Daily things hit me. I am an early riser. Sometimes too early. I often start work at 3:30 in the morning and go back to bed from 6:00 am to 7:30 a.m. Its a regular pattern for months at a time. I commit every morning to contemplation and preparing myself for the day. I seek LIFE.
But always life gets in the way of LIVING FOR ME.
I need to get Lori a new car. I am trying to figure out what we really can afford given our present state of intense budgeting. I need to buy her tabs if I don’t get a car in the next couple days. It is stretching me and taking my thoughts in numerous directions the last three days. LIFE or LIVING seems to be minute by minute my choice.
I have a trip to take to California next week. I am really looking forward to it. But lining up my mileage to get a free ticket nearly got me and Lori into a fight. But we always laugh at our tiffs minutes latter. But the experience took away some of the fun for me.
I have an appointment today that I know is going to be pointless. I have to leave some pressing work behind in my office and meet with some folks that aren’t going to do a thing about what I say. It is already leaving a bad taste in my mouth.
Life always gets in the way of LIVING.
I find practicing the awareness of God’s presence helps me traverse the LIFE moments. And i even pray the Jesus Pray – Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner.
But I cherish though moments at 3:30 a.m. when there is no LIFE to get in the way of LIVING.
And I am learning a mature soul learns to find LIVING IN THE MIDST OF LIFE. But its not easy.
