There are things I would like to discuss with you. But I am not likely too. You probably wouldn’t like me if I did. I have shared some of them before. And people didn’t like it.
I am not alone. We all have secret things that make up the core of who we are. They aren’t necessarily mistakes either. I would for example like to tell you what it felt like to get an honorary doctorate. But I won’t. I just wouldn’t be right.
Of course there are many things that have to do with my sins and errors. I have learned so much from them that you will never know. And its too bad because the lessons would be so valuable. I used to think you should tell people everything and anything to be authentic. But I have learned not to. So you are missing out due to my correct fear of those who wouldn’t approve.
Secrets are special things. I have secret pain. And you will never know the pain. But then again you are busy with your own. Secrets are good to keep. You should always save part of yourself just for you and God. The horrible thing about some things like addiction or idiotic decisions is what you wished could be kept secret becomes the property of far too many people.
I don’t want to in anyway say I am a parable of what God is like. But I think we some times forget that there are things about God that we will never know. And its the things we don’t know and never will know about Him that make Him most God.
The writer of Revelation says that Jesus will have a name written upon Him that know man will know. This is a poetic way of saying “he refuses to make all of himself known.”
I have known a few famous people. Many of them were very brilliant and complex. They often have a way of saving part of themselves. When you get to know them a little they show you more of themselves. But the smart ones never show you all they are. Its one of the problems of being public, you never really get to keep control of what is known about you.
God came into the light in Jesus and should us what He felt was most important for us to know about Him. And the Holy Spirit forever seeks to show us those things about Jesus we could never discover without Him.
So maybe some day I will tell you a few things about my pain. I just might get the courage up to share a few things I have learned from my sins, pains, betrayals and all that stuff. But for now let’s just let things lie.
